A wonderful example of a warrior woman!

Before I went on my journey I was not in touch with my true feelings or myself. I felt the more I could live outside my body the better off I would be. There was just too much stuff to deal with if I actually sat with myself and let feelings start to surface. I had learned at a young age it was better to appease and not be in touch with my authentic self. This again goes back to my needs not being met as an infant by my biological mother. I couldn't begin to understand why she was all of a sudden not there? I had lived inside her for about 10 months, knew her sounds, her voice, i was a part of her and she of me. then I came into this world and was suddenly apart from all I knew. With the brain development we know the first 3 years are so critical on wiring a child's brain "correctly and optimally". The way this is done is by getting their needs met by their main caregivers. I didn't get that chance in the very beginning so that started my journey on not trusting others and feeling like I couldn't really rely on someone else. They now know that closed adoptions is not the best way to handle an adoption. the more a child knows about their beginnings, are able to grieve the loss, and be supported along the way the better adjusted they can become. A wonderful book to read to learn about this process is "Twenty Things Adopted Kids Wish Their Adoptive Parents Knew" by Sherrie Eldridge. If you or someone you know is adpoted or planning on adopting, this would be a beautiful book to recommend to them. It goes into the why, how and tools to help this process be the best it can be for all involved.
So, since I spent most of my life not wanting to connect to these primal, original woundings and feelings I tended to live outside my body if you will. Keeping myself occupied with activities, friends, clubs, sports, wine, going out, anything to not really acknowledge or embrace all parts of me. I never really thought I would have children. Maybe it was too close to my pain inside? Maybe subconsciously I felt it would trigger and bring up the feelings I had worked so long to keep buried? But here I was, married and pregnant at 37. By the time I did get pregnant I had already been on my journey and was finally in touch with a lot of the things I needed help in healing. So, it was no surprise to me, maybe to many others that instead of scheduling a c-section, and getting an epidural right away to deaden myself from the feelings and process of giving birth and bringing a life into the world I was choosing a different path. I was choosing a home water birth. And I found this moving clip that speaks to this journey. This warrior woman inspired me with her story and next time I will go into the reasons why I chose this beautiful path....

I hope you enjoy this video as much as I did...

http://vimeo.com/6885221

the Impact of Early Adversity on Children's Development

Here is the video on the impact of early adversity on children's development. Hope you enjoy!

http://vimeo.com/6066948

Empowering women one woman at a time...

this is my first blog entry....I have been tinkering with the idea for some time now....It all started from my own personal journey. I am still a work in progress but am feeling called to get my messages out there. I am also not technical so this could be comical at times...

This is also something my husband has wanted me to focus on, as he is getting a bit tired of me posting all my beliefs and info I want to share on facebook. He has suggested a blog more than a couple times, so here goes!!! :)

I have been humbled in my journey. My journey started very long ago. I was put up for adoption and into foster care for about 6  weeks until I was adopted at about 2 months old. I never could have imagined what all was involved with the brain development for a child, and how the experiences we have as a child shape and imprint on us for the rest of our lives. Most may not realize that we can heal those early childhood traumas and find our peace inside. We can actually re-train our brains. Like rewiring a faulty circuit board and creating a much more positive outcome.

This journey is not for the faint of heart. Looking inward and doing the hard work, is just that, hard work. But it can be done and when you come out the other side it is glorious...

I am now 37 years old and expecting my first child. Something I never thought would be in my life. Just never saw it and my "guesstimate" date is 2/14/2012. so about 10 days away.

So how did I get here? How did I finally end up with my life mate, expecting our first child and wanting to empower women?

Because I know how it feels to come thru the other side. I know what it feels like to do the hard work and know what it feels like to change your life for you. I am still a work in progress like I said, I feel we are until we are called home. But I know it can be done, for all of us if we have an open mind, and open heart and a desire. No matter how small and dark it may feel for you, if you have a sliver of hope and desire than listen to that voice inside and walk towards the light.

I will post a clip on brain development that speaks to what is possible. I need to go find it, I viewed it awhile ago and it spoke to re-wiring the brain.